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fIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL

2008-08-29T06:11:00.000-07:00

Hey. So far i kind of like going back to school even though i do have homework and stuff but overall its still manageable... so far.

And there are somany things to join!!! I joined skating today,a dn learnt every basic skating. Which i think is better than not skating at all. LOL

I also joined archery. for 3 sat. so cool!

Oh and also jap cultural clu even thoughi really don't know how i can juggle all of it but i'll see how it goesfIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL

My Most Recent Attempt at Reviving this BLOG

2008-07-23T04:11:00.000-07:00

Yo. I decided that rather than have a long non-updated blog but a sudden long long post, i'll just do a short post each time. LOL.

HELLO!!!

Lol i haven't written so long that i don't know where to start off from.

Ok i'll start with I got accepted into SMU Econ. Orientation to come soon... hopefully it'll turn out ok.

Yup that is it for now

Thanks so much for everything Mr Loh...you will be missed

2007-11-25T22:15:00.000-08:00

Life is just so unpredicatable isn't it? Just when u met someone for like 3 or 4 lessons...then before u know it, you'll never see him again. honestly, i'm still in a state of shock everytime is realise that Mr Stephen Loh is not around anymore. He was so nice...ok, i admit i didn't really know him very very well, but he was really the kind of big on the outside and all mushy on the inside. He truly had a heart as big as he was. its just...so sad that he had to leave us so soon...when we just barely met him...i think life can be so unfair at times huh?

I still remeber during PE class, everyone liked him at first sight, he was always all smiles u know? and never scolds...AT ALL...we would always tease him and joke...soon enough we treated him more of a friend then a teacher, despite seeing him only once a week. and he was always so dedicated always looking out for everyone of us, giving us advice. it was a understatement to say that we loved his lessons...Even though i SUCK at basketball, somehow or other he really made me love the sport...well maybe not the sport but at least enjoy shooting hoops and stuff...

Its really really sad that we won't ever see him again, especially so to people who know him very well, but i guess we all have to take pride in the belief that he has definitely gone to a better place. So, my condolences to all his family and friends. as well as to the family and friends of the other 4 dragon boaters...you will be missed...

BYE KEL!!

2007-11-18T20:32:00.000-08:00

MY SIS HAS ONLY BEEN ON THE PLANE FOR 2 HRS AND I MISS HER ALREADY!! hahah..prob cos i can't go on a trip yet... but i still worry for her...but i know she'll be ok and have lots of fun.

Sent her off at the airport today...damn i'm gonna miss my baby...

BYE KEL!! see u in 2 weeks....

Life After A's

2007-11-18T20:22:00.000-08:00

Haiz...have i told anyone that blogthings suck?? oh well...maybe its just my com...but it takes like forever to load.

Now i'm studying for my phy mcq tomorrow but i can't help wishing my paper was today so that i could just get it done and over with. LOL...not that i have confidence i can do the paper...but what the heck...I JUST WANNA BE FREE!!! i mean finally...i realised i really haven't throughly enjoyed myself for like a really really long time...and i m like so shopping deprived, i think inside my shopping soul is like a shrivelled up, sorely shopping-moisture lacking old hag...LOL...sorry i just can't take that scene out of my head...

Come to think of it...this thing called a levels? its been like a really really long roller coaster ride. the ups and downs, and of course all the coolio peeps who rode it with me...i prob wouldn't have been able to do it without them...not that i took the rode really well... but after such a long ride...i guess i'm really ready to get off and enjoy the rest of the carnival called life...ride the ferris wheel and eat!! lol...

so the road ahead?? i dunnoe... depends on where i'm taken too... i already have a rough idea about what to do but i'm not really sure everything will work out as planned... but so far, here's a handy dandy list of the things i plan to do...LOL... i sound like the host in the kids show blue's clue...lol...never mind

1. CRASH DIET!! and buy grad nite dress...(cross my fingers that i'll find one)
2. GRAD NITE!! lol...dunno who that would turn out...
3. oh opps i forgot i was supposed to be muggin for my sat...
4. HONG KONG!! whoo...tentatively leaving on the 8th dec
5. shop, slack and meet my frens
6. get a job...hopefully...SENTOSA!!! whoo!!
7. trip to THAILAND...lol...

Happy birthday mei!!

2007-11-16T02:16:00.000-08:00

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OMG...i love doing that...aniway...happy bdae kel!! love ya lots!! muacks

Dead Blog...LIKE SERIOUSLY

2007-10-17T00:01:00.000-07:00

Thy blog shall die til the day i m revived....20th NOV....

So sorry...don't come here le...warning given.

Things that keep me busy nowadays?

MUG, Tuition, MUG, Sleep, School, Groan, MUG, MUG, MUG... can't think of anything else.

BYE...for now

Lee Hom. What else?

2007-09-28T22:48:00.000-07:00

Ahh!!!! Lee hom is in town. and though this weekend an indescribable pain takes over my entire being. Pain like never before. why? I WAS THIS CLOSE TO MEETING HIM!!!!!!

Firstly, my char darling (lol char dun kill me for calling you that) called me on fri at like 2.15. Once i picked up, she was like "Eh! my mother got tickets to lee hom's qian chang hui! at ngee ann poly 3 today. Want or not?" Hahaha... after overcoming my initial state of shock, i was like "umm...your mother?" HAHAH...then she said that it was her cousin who managed to snag 20 tickets for the show. 20?! Hai. i really really really wanted to go. But my prelims did so badly le, still go meh? Hai. VERY VERY unwillingly. i replied "Hai. i think i'll pass. thanks alot though but studies come first." ANYONE SHOCKED OUT THERE? lol. I ACTUALLY TURNED DOWN TICKETS TO SEE LEE HOM. THE MAN OF MY DREAMS?!! hahaha...but i regretted it like hell after that. HAI....

That's not all man. LOL. its way way worse. Chu Ling messaged me that night too. she was like "Eh. Guess what? my bro met lee hom at k-box. lee hom was there for some ji zhe hui and even walked past my bro's room. My bro, even a guy eh, said that lee hom is DAMN hamdsome and has flawless skin." OMG. i felt like dying. i really wanted to take a knife and KILL myself!!! AHHHHHHHH....my lee hom!!! hai...never mind la. there will be a chance one day right? HAI

HAI

Dream Again

2007-09-24T01:41:00.001-07:00

Since, my lao gong is coming, lol. i tot i might post up the lyrics to his song. Dream again. its so sweet. He wrote this for his gf. yup. so sweet huh? LOL. too bad its not me. LOL

Dream Again (from bai zhi album)

I haven't seen my baby in so long.
But i can feel her in this song.
I turn on the stereo, the groove is nice and slow.
If only she was here to dance along.

I write her letters every single day.
There's only so much words can say
We'll be together soon.
I'm dancing in my room,
imagining you're not so far away.

And i dream again,
you're right by my side.
You're back in my arms again.
A feling so sublime.

So i dream again.
you're beautiful smile.
and we're dancing cheek to cheek,
across a thougsand miles.

Hahaha... this is the first part...will write out the last bit later...BYE!

2007-09-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

LOL...today we went to go print class tees. Then dy said something very interesting. He said "Haiya, steffi only got two topics she can talk about. so as long as all topics go in either of these 2 directions, you're on her wavelength.". HAHAHA...at first i was too busy laughing. But now that i'm home, i went through the stage of denial. I m NOT so shallow. am i? LOL. then i decided to post something on my blog. (due to shar's constant pleas for an update.) Then once this page came up, LO AND BEHOLD, the first thing i tot about writting was topic no2. lol. ok topic no 1. is lee hom la, of course who else (wait a min, dun ans that)? so topic no 2, is well you can guess can't you? Oh well...i guess i am shallow huh? or maybe obsessed, as char put it. Hahaha... i dunno....but honestly,hahahaha... i guess i m obsessed. and i m shallow. LOL. but i dun wanna be this way.

LOL. ok here are the thing i'll do from now:

1. i'll try to stop talking about the two. TRY ONLY
2. i'll keep telling myself what is mine will be mine. what is not? oh well, suck it up then.
3. SELF CONTROL. not my strong point, but i can try rite? LOL
4. TRY not to think about it so often. Now this is HARD. but i'll try... lol... yup

2007-09-10T02:29:00.000-07:00

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Need i say more? it sucks and i wich the ordeal was over...

WARNING: Dead Blog!

2007-09-02T07:05:00.000-07:00

CAUTION: This blog is officially dead and will not be updated till further notice (i.e. 20th Nov)

Any inconvenience is deeply regretted...

LOL!!!...sorry people A levels come first...After Prelims, it'll be the last lap...CHIONG!!! WHOOO!!!! lol...feeling high...STUDYING TURNS ME ON!!! lol...kidding kidding...that would probably never happen...but i'll try...LOL... PEOPLE, wish me luck

P.S. Sorry for all the delayed tags...but i prob wun be replying any more after this...

A LEVELS, I'M COMING!!!

I'M GONNA SET THIS WORLD ON FIRE (no literally, so don't report me for arson)

WITH A TORCH!!! JUST WATCH ME!!!!

How Do I breathe

2007-08-26T03:33:00.000-07:00

LOL...i realised that songs by blacks are much much nicer...i guess their voice quality is stronger and stronger...i luv craig david...and now mario...kay...he looks like...er...kay not my type...but the song is damn nice...here are the lyrics...sweet song....but i only like the melody...LOL

How Do I Breathe
How Do I Breathe

[Verse 1]
Feels so Different Being Here
I Was So Used to Being Next to You
Life For me is Not the Same
There's no One to turn to
Dont know why i let it go too far
Starting over it's so hard
Seems like everywhere I try to go
I keep thinking of you

[Bridge]
I just Had a wake up call (call)
Wishing that i never let you fall (fall)
Baby you were not to blame at all(When Im the One that Pushed you Away)
Baby if you knew I cared (cared)
You Would Never Went No Where (no where)
Girl I should've been right there

[Chorus]
How Do I Breathe without you here by my side
How will I see when your love brought me to the light
Where do I go when your heart's where I lay my head
When your not with me, how do I breathe
How do I Breathe

[Verse 2]
Girl Im Losing my Mind
Yes, I made a mistake
I Felt That you would be mine
Guess the joke was on me
This is so bad I can't sleep
I Wish I Knew Where You Could be
Another dude is Replacing me
God, This Cant be Happening

[Bridge]
I just Had a wake up call (call)
Wishing that i never let you fall
Baby you were not to blame at all(When Im the One that Pushed you Away)
Baby if you knew I cared
You Wouldn't have gone no where (no where)
Girl I should've been right there (and i wonder)

[Chorus]
How Do I Breathe without you here by my side
How will I see when your love brought me to the light
Where do I go when your heart's where I lay my head
When your not with me, how do I breathe
How do I Breathe

[Hook]
I Cant get over you, no(ooh)
Baby I dont wanna let go(ohhhh)
Girl you need to come home, back to me
Cause girl you make it hard to breathe
Oh when you're not with me

[Chorus]
Tell Me
How Do I Breathe without you here by my side
How will I see when your love brought me to the light
Where do I go when your heart's where I lay my head
When your not with me, how do I breathe
How do I Breathe

Yeaaahhhhhh

SLACK LIST

2007-08-13T05:32:00.000-07:00

Haizzzzz....the A LEVELS are approaching...i'm so dead... 4 more months...will i survive? i think not...but what to do? i choose this path and so i have to live through it...haha...KAY WAIT... not funny...

Haiz as much as there are 4 LONG, arduous MONTHS left, i can't help but think what i want to do after that...HAHAH...stupid rite? thinking about things that are not gonna happen in a long long (only god knows how long) time...hahaha....oh wellz...do i care? nope...hahaha...here goes...my list

1. Mug my SAT...LOL...sad rite?? but i'll try my best this time...hahaha...I WILL

2. LOSE WEIGHT...i m like so way off my ideal wieght...haiz...must buck up after a levels...more running, more swimming, more gym and try to hit the sauna...LOL...who's interested to join??

3. Go for a make over... i need to have a change...

4. BUY MY GRAD NITE DRES...lol..but i dun wanna think too much about it..hahah...sometimes the more u think, the more disappointed you'll be...

5. TAKE UP DANCE...been so long..i miss the grooves, the beats and the hard work put in into every dance...

6. Get a boyfriend...HAHAHA...kidding kidding...these kind of things cannot say one la...lol...i'm just joking...bf aren't for me...at least not they aren't

7. K BOX....sing the building down babe!!!!

8. SLACK...WOOTS...that sounds so so good...just thinking of the days spent in front of the com, chatting on MSN, stoning in front of my tele...gg out shopping...lol...THAT IS LIFE

that is about all for now...hahaha...will keep it updated though...LOL

My love song!!!!

2007-08-06T03:21:00.000-07:00

OMG...this so is like so so so sweet...my heart melts everytime I hear it... i think its the greatest compliment a guy could give a gurl...like seriously...Being a true blue idealist, i think that in liking (not love, sorry, but i dun really believe true love exists) someone...you not only like them for the aspects of themselves they know about but even the things they dun realise about themselves...you like someone as a whole, quirks and all...and if someone really likes you for all the simple things...THAT is what you truly call liking....hahaha...i think is anyone sings me this...i'll cry...lol...its just so sweet don't you think? I couldn't find the lyrics on the internet cos its not a really famous song...so i just typed it out myslef...check out the tune on youtube...it rocks...the tempo is really smooth and simple so it really fits the song...i think this guy wrote it for his girlfriend or something...OMG!!! my heart's melting...its so sweet...gosh i m so gonna make my future husband sing this when he proposes...hahah...forced to?? hmmm...maybe...

Easy To Love You by Shane Ward

Uncomplicated, you enjoy the simple things.
Don't need no make-up, you just wear what nature brings.
If you could see what I see, you would know you're beautiful...

You make it easy to love you,
Everytime you smile at me.
And its so easy to love you,
Girl, you shine so naturally.
I couldn't even count them in so many ways,
You make it easy to love you...

You can't hide it, it's there in everything you do.
You don't see it and that's just why i fell for you.
If you could see what I see, you would know you're beautiful...

You make it easy to love you,
Everytime you smile at me.
And its so easy to love you,
Girl, you shine so naturally.
I couldn't even count them in so many ways,
You make it easy to love you...
You make it easy to love you...

If you could see what I see, you would know you're beautiful...

You make it easy to love you,
Everytime you smile at me.
And its so easy to love you,
Girl, you shine so naturally.
I couldn't even count them in so many ways,
You make it easy to love you...

My emo moments

2007-08-01T05:04:00.000-07:00

I realised my feelings for you are getting harder and harder to supress. Yet, as much as i want to tell you how i feel about you, my fear of rejection grows to such proportions that it is about to overwhelm me. I don't know what to do...As the dangers of 'A' levels loom over us, i know i should be concentrating on my studies but...i still do think about u...hahaha....perhaps you could be a "stress ball" to me...something to let me dwell upon to prevent me from going over the edge...whatever the reason...i can't stop thinking about you.

Ironical isn't it? I really want you to know...i really want the feeling reciprocated...but yet...i know deep down inside...it's not...you don't feel the same way as i feel for you...Haha...and as much as i want you to realise my affections, i fear for the inevitable rejection and for that reason alone, i keep mum...These opposing feelings are tearing at my heart...i feel at a total lost...haha...the exact way i feel when i'm around you...

I really want to give u a good impression...I really do... i want you to see me as someone fun-loving yet reliable as well...HA...but everytime you talk to me...fear fills my throat and my heart races...so much so that i could only come up with a one word reply..."HURH?" i know...it looks dumb, sound stupid...i don't want to be that way...but i can't help it... i really can't...my friends laugh at my reaction but there is truly nothing i could do...

Its so hilarious...while i'm typing out my inner most feelings, you sms me...hahaha....my heart skips a beat...such coincidence...i really wonder what you think about me?? what am i to you? just another classmate or even less than that? I just want an answer really...i just want to know...the pressure is killng me...i'm losing the ablility to breathe...no, wait...i'm fooling myself...you'll never like me... i know you never will....but i can't help hoping...

Funny how i spend the entrie weekend thinking about how i can get over you...how wrong you are for me...but on monday...as i tell myself "GET OVER IT"...i see you...and everything disappears... all the reasons, all the telling myself i'm not good enough, all the saying we aren't compatible at all...all of it...simply disappears...And i find myself at level 1...i don't want to like you...but i do...how long is it before i can let you go?

No one understands...no one know why i like you...honestly, even i don't know the reason...but i just do...

Change me

2007-07-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

LOL...i can forsee that a lot of pple wun like his new album...LOL...his other 2 albums were like more focused on traditional chinese music...THIS time he made quite a huge change...NOW the focus is on like oldies SHANGHAI world war 2 tunes...YES YES i know alot of pple will says its not nice, its sleepy, its boring, its too simple, its not faced paced enough...which is true cos this time he has a lot of ballads in this album...HOWEVER...you all have to understand...that this shows how professional he can be as an actor. Recently he's acting in the movie Lust, Caution...which is coming out aroung mid sept? where he plays a substantial role...and because he was so into his role, it explains his turn in music...AND I RESPECT HIM FOR THAT...lol...lee hom...no matter how much others dislike this album...i think its rocks...LOL...

Change Me Tracks

1. Intro
2. 改變自己 Change Me (Gǎi bìan Zì jǐ)
3. 落葉歸根 Falling Leaf Returns to Roots (Lùo yè gūi gēn)
4. 創作前言 Preface of Composed Work (Chùang zùo Qían Yán)
5. 我們的歌 Our Song (Wǒ men de Gē)
6. 你是我心內的一首歌 You Are a Song in My Heart (Nǐ shì Wǒ xīn neì de Yì shǒu gē) feat. Selina
7. 愛在哪裡 Where's Love (Aì Zaì Nǎ lǐ)
8. Cockney Girl
9. 不完整的旋律 Incomplete Melody (Bù wán zhěng de Xúan Lǜ)
10. 愛的鼓勵 Lovely Cheer (Aì de Gǔ lì)
11. 華人萬歲 Chinese Hooray (Húa rén Wàn sùi)
12. 星期六的深夜 Saturday Midnight (Xīn qí lìu de Shēn yè)

2007-07-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

WHOOO!!!! my love for lee hom is rekindled!!!!LOL i m happy to announce i m once again in love with him...WAHAHA...i have to admit there was a long period of time my affections were transferred elsewhere...note: i m not telling u where it went. LOL...but know lee honm's album is out!!! WOOTS!!!! it rocks...i luv the drums and elect guitar...y'all gotta go hear his new song on youtube...it rocks...seriously...WHOOO

HAHAH...hmmm...something else tt is gg on in my life is...BESTBOX...whoo i think its damn cool...too bad i still can't do it...i'm not giving up though!! LOL...its damn funny...kay...apparently the few things i learnt...there are 3 basic types of beats and all resemble the drum and cymbal..each diff sound can then be combined...LOL...however when i tried it...LOL...i feel like i'm spitting...hahahaha....dunno...I WUN GIVE UP THOUGH

LOL...i miss dance...never mind must tell myself...RUN FOR DANCE RUN FOR DANCE...hahah...i needa lose weight then can dance nicer...hahah...and it can make ur reflexes faster too..LOL...i miss the sense of satisfaction of getting a dance number down...LOL...i miss the excitement...

2007-07-09T07:07:00.000-07:00

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.

You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.

You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

2007-07-09T07:05:00.000-07:00

Your True Birth Month Is December

Logical
Patriotic
Ambitious
Not egoistic
Loves praise
Loves to joke
Fun to be with
Not pretending
Loves attention
Short tempered
Hates restrictions
Loves to socialize
Loves to be loved
Loyal and generous
Impatient and hasty
Changing personality
Good sense of humor
Honest and trustworthy
Influential in organizations
Takes high pride in oneself
Active in games and interactions

What's Your True Birth Month?

2007-07-09T04:25:00.001-07:00

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force.
You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle.
An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

2007-07-09T04:23:00.001-07:00

You Are A Girl!

Are you ever serious? Well, you're seriously playful.
And guys are attracted to your girlish spirit and all the fun that follows.
Your girlish, temper, however... well, they could live without that.
Not to worry though, you never stay upset for long. It's off to the next adventure.

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

LOL...sad but...true?

2007-07-09T04:13:00.002-07:00

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...COOKIE MONSTER?! HAHAHAHAHAHA

2007-07-09T04:13:00.001-07:00

You Are 80% Impulsive

You are impulsive, which at times leads to irresponsibility.
It's hard for you to say no to all but the most insane propositions.
But you could care less. While your impulsive ways have gotten you in a little trouble - they've made for a very exciting life!

Are You Impulsive?

2007-07-09T04:09:00.002-07:00

Your Rising Sign is Libra

A total charmer, it's hard for people to say no to you.
Irresistable and attractive, you have no shortage of love interests.

Totally competitive, you tend to thrive in stressful enviroments.
A peaceful soul, you avoid conflict at almost all costs.

Sometimes you try too hard to please those around you.
But you have a great inner strength that helps you bounce back easily.

What's Your Rising Sign?

loL i think this is quite true too...lol

2007-07-09T04:09:00.001-07:00

You Are 52% Weirdo

You're definitely quite strange, but you can act like a normal person when you have to.
(But just because you can act normally, it certainly doesn't mean you want to!)
You have normal aspects to your personality... but you usually don't choose to emphasize them.

Are You A Weirdo?

LOL...WHAT CAN I SAY...T-R-U-T-H

2007-07-09T03:58:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: June 28

You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.
You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems.
Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego.
You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance.

Your strength: Your bold approach to life

Your weakness: You don't accept help

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Pyramid

Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ER...failure not an option for me?? hahaa...i dun think so...failure seems to be my only option...unless its PW...lol

2007-07-09T03:40:00.000-07:00

LOL...i realised that i can be really relly wierd at times...hahaha...okay fine i know to some of u out there this piece of info is not shocking. Hahaha...BUT the reason why i realised that i'm weird cos crazy ideas pop up in my head all the time...like u know...the philosophical type of stuff?? Hahaha....Like right know....i'm thinking of 2 topics: Personality and Secrets

1. Personality
Everyone has their own personality. It's what defines us. It's what people love about us and how people will get to know us. BUT question is: do all of us really know OURSELVES? do we truly know our personality or is the journey of life all about finding out who you are? Should u be clear who you are or are u supposed to find out? I'm confused. For myself, i can't really decide wat my personality is like at all. I mean yeah i know i give the OUTSPOKEN vibe like i was made to talk and born with a big mouth (lol...wait a min...i really was born w a big mouth...literally)...BUT i was NOT that outspoken my entire life...You know wat? I realised that our personality is like the clearest and most vivid when we are children...Hahaha...I WAS NOT FAT SINCE DAY1...lol...but i was outspoken since day 1...hahaha...So yeah i guess i m outposken aren't I...

HMMM...but other then outspoken-ness, what else do i have? NOTHING...lol...kay la not tt bad..i guess i'm also IRRATIONAL...hahaha... aren't I? yeah...i do alot of stuff through gut feeling and it usually doesn't have a good ending...LOL...in a more positive side...i guess u can say that i'm SPONTANEOUS?? HAHAH....like today...shar, char and chu were so embarrassed to see me running, screaming and waving at the same time...LOL...i guess i do embarrass people sometimes... but its who i am...rite?? so i shouldn't change no matter what...if u dun like how i act: DEAL WITH IT....lol

now lets see...what else?? er...ok i guess i'm not DOWN to earth...LOL...i usually have my mind in the air building castles...

I'm also HAPPY GO LUCKY? hahaha...i guess that can be a bad thing too...FAIL CT? NEVER MIND HAHAHA...LOOK FAT? NEVER MIND HAHAHAHA....NOT POPULAR? NEVER MIND HAHAHAA....SLEEPING IN CLASS? NEVER MIND HAHAHA...need i say more?

LOL...O!!! I'm also OBSESSIVE (yes yes about lee hom) and VOCAL (i can't keep secrets that have to do with me)...

LOL i guess i do know myself pretty well huh?

HAHAHA
tired of typing le...i think i'll talk about secrets another day...lol...lee hom's voice is calling me...whoo...walking in memphis...whoo....

Choices?

2007-07-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

I guess life is full of choices rite?? but the weird thing is...sometimes life complicates things more then giving one luxury. Choices can be so annoying at times that u just wanna hide and not think about it anymore. I guess that is why i make choices so quickly...i dun wanna be stuck in that space where you think and think and think...GOSH that never ending line of thinking just makes my head hurt...

WHAT TO DO?? lol... and yet alot of it i can't write down...cos its so close to my heart...lol...what to do...i dun really see the point of a blog anymore

Random Post

2007-07-03T00:25:00.000-07:00

Hai...realised i haven't posted in a long long time...

Kay first things first!!! LOL class bbq!!! really ty ty to all those whu came...even all those whu bothered to tell me they weren't coming...lol dunnoe why i keep saying thank you...i guess i was really touched it turned out pretty well in my opinion...No one knows...but i was worrying over the bbq for a long long long time...i was so worried pple wun enjoy it...Hai...but at least they seemed to...so i was pretty reliefed...it was such a busy day yeaterday...after it was over i totally collapsed on my bed...LOL...ok...it started off with me, mich, char and chris meeting at habour front....THEN!!1 NIC JOINED US!! lol...he was very cute la...esp when he described why he dun like lan...LOL...we shopped for quite some time and there were like discounts every where. LOL...Apparently, char and chris were DROOLING at Forever 21 and me and mich found it quite boring so we went to espirit...Hahah...then char and chris were so sweet...they then secretly went off to fin my prezzie!! LOL...they tot it was mich brilliant plan to bring me away...but actually it was my idea...LOL...how ironical...

Oh and after tt we went to the really really mini arcade. LOL... it was damn small... we played a few games then the guys met up with us before we went to SUPER DOG to eat...it was my first time there but i found it pretty good...Then we went to GIANT to buy food...eventually we realised we bought way way too much...

Hai...there is alot else tt happened but i dun feel like typing anymore...LOL...

well...there was one time during the bbq at my house where i just needed some quiet...then for some reason pple tot i was being emo...LOL....

Ironically...when no one is around to care i'm felling emo...LOL...i tot i wasn't an emo person but apparently i am...ahahaha...forget it, i dunno what i'm talking about...Now playing luo ye gui gen...LEE HOM'S NEW SONG...its damn sad...i guess tt explains my emo mood...lol...feel like cryng once i hear the violin...it tears at my heart...LOL...

I guess there are alot of things and ideas that really shouldn't be posted on a blog...cos its like extremely confidential rite?? Lol...so sad...a place to pen your thoughts but it becomes a place to seperate secrets and lies...sorrie tt was just me being emo...LOL....hai....

HAPPY BDAE TO ME!!

2007-06-28T02:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...ME...HAPPY BITHDAY TO ME!!!

lol... thanks to all my great buds out there who wished me a happy bdae, bought me presents and went out to celebrate w me!!! I WAS SO TOUCHED!!! SO MANY PPLE WISHED ME HAPPY BDAE!! i think this is the first yr so many pple wished me happy birthday!!!
hahahaha

Here are the pple who wished me an EARLY happy bdae!!! LOL

1. Kakak(mean something like big sis in indo) Maya...called form indo!!! lol...thanks kak!!! hahaha...but she called A WEEK too early...lol...she was like;"HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFF!! umur berapa(how old are u now?)??" hahahaha...and i was like "Kak...u're like a week too early??" LOL...but it was so sweet of her to call from INDO.. LUV U KAK MAYA!!!

2. YING XU!! hahaha she like wished me before the math paper...hahaha...she was"just in case i forget to wish u on thur...HAPPY BDAE!!" Thanks ying xu!!! so sweet of y

3. shar!!! HAHAHA...she smsed me the day before...lol...while i was muggin for phy...hahaha...i was so pleasantly surprised...hahaha...LOVE U SHAR!!!

4. WINNIE!! lol...thanks...was nice to have u talk to me and destress from muggin phy...hahaha...and i still dun get why u even like tt topic...lol

Then the pple who wished me on the day itself: Thanks u guys...
1.Chu...thanks!!! u smsed me at like 12 midnight while i was sleeping like a pig...LOL
2. Chak...thanks man...was very grateful for the piece of info u fed me...lol...
3. KEL....thanks mei!!!even though u looked so stressed w ur bio
4. Zi jiang...lol...thanks for remembering...hahaha...even with e fever...lol
5. Mich...Hahaha...once i reach school i already saw e balloon by the way...hahaha...but i just decided to let u surprise me
6. Christine...lol...thanks for the bimbo wave u gave me in the morning...lol...made me damn high
7. Su Lwin...nice seeing u in the morning...hahaha...somehow u always look calm before any paper...whereas i look like a crazy freak tt is losing her mind...haha
8.CHAR...auntie!! thanks for e hug...lol....
9. Yu ting...thanks!!!
10. Xiao min...ahahaha...u looked so surprised tt i was so cheery...hahaha
11. Mr low...hahaha...thanks for e choc...hahaha...i know it was supposed to be for ur boyfriend...oh die...was tt a secret?? LOL
12. Ji wei...hahaha...bet u did well for e phy!! haiz...lucky u
13. Tim...hahaha...i had to be shameless to tell u its my bdae...lol
14. Jess...who was sitting in front of me and said happy bdae just before the killer phy...hahaha
15. GREG...lol...i bet it was christine who told u...but nevertheless...thanks for the hand shake..lol
16. Issac...lol...thanks...i was a little random...but thanks it was really sweet
17. MY GOD SIS!! Justin!! lol...PS ME!! hahahaha...how dare u!! hahaha...nvm
18. NIC...also another random sms...but thanks...HAHAH...and i'm waiting for my jolin tsai present!!1 hahaha
19. My 2 frens from AJC. met them at suki sushi...lol...
20. WANG QING....thanks so much...hipe to see u at the end of the yr!!!

Hahahaha...i think tt is about it...if i forgot anyone sorry!!! and thanks for the bdae wishes...

now for the prezzies!!!lol :
1. BDAE CAKE from aunti yvone...thanks it was so cute!! luv it!!! thank you so much!!!
2. 3 balloons from chris, mich and char...thanks...it was so sweet makes me look like a baby but ok...hahahah...had to carry it all over orchard road...lol
3. necklace from mom...thanks ma!!i love it!!!
4. OUT OF THIS WORLD DAMN NICE EARINGS FORM MY SIS!!! kel!!! thanks...i wil so wear it for grad nite once i peirce my ears lol...u can read me like a book...I LOVE IT SO MUCH I'M STILL SMILLING!!! LOL
- haha...tt is it for now...but i forsee more bdae prezzies coming my way...rite pple??hahhaa jokin joking!! hahaha-

THEN THE CELEBRATION:
- Hahah to day it was a damn vicious cycle of pang se-ing...hahah.1st i said needa celebrate w family so can't go out...so chris made arangements with someone else...lol...then i decided to go out..so it became chris pang se me and char...hahaha
- aniway...char and me were just lazy and wanted to wait for the side gate to open...lol...and then slowly evolved into an outing...lol...at first we just wanted to go for sushi
- then justin (my god sis) wanted to join us but PS us for someone else!!!hahaha
- then xiao min met us...hahaha.she called me 3 times and i never heard her...hahaha
- when we were at the bus stop we meet runyu...OH and she wished me happy bdae too!!! hahaha even though she called me kel...hahaha...
- we also met aaron at the bustop and he said he wanted to go home...lol..dunnoe how true is tt...u wanted to go out w ur gf rite??hahaha
- Later on the bus we decided tt its so lame for 2 pple to go out so decided to call the rest....
- oh and char kept trying to make me hold the baloons and tske act cute photo...HAHAH...tai tai acting like a kid...how weird is tt?? hahaha...but i was really touched tt they got me something despite the exams la...
- We went to suki sushi when chu called back and said she and ying xu wanted to join us...
- oh and i met my frens at suki!!! ahahaha....so long never meet them...lol...
- After tt we went to watch fantastic 4...pretty good show actually...i think the human torch guy was hot....lol...so did char..hahaha...i think the 2 of us drooled alot!! LOL
- Then we went to taka and took pictures in the toilet...HAHAHA
- oh then we went out and saw this makeshift stall along orchard rd...hahaha...it was selling books for like 50 cents...LOL...and u all may have guessed it...CHAR ACTED LIKE A CHEAPO...hahaha...dun worry i took her pics....lol....
- After tt we met this grp of pple who wanted to sell us stuff for charity...there were 2 guys...then they split up to talk to me and chu...and the other guy talked to char and ying xu...LOL...
- for me and chu...it toook less then a min...we waited for him to fin explaining then shared the cost to pay for one....just to run away....
- WHEREAS for ying xu and char...hahaha...the 2 of them said no...and it took so so so long...the guy kept pleading and pleading..hahaha....and me and chu were standing there laughing our heads off
- eventually...they won...char and yingxu very slowly and unwillingly, took out their wallets and paid to stop them from talking any longer...lol...

LOL i know this is a dman long post...hahaha...but so long never post le...so decided to write a long long one...lol

TAGGED

2007-06-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

LOL!!! Stella gave me the TAG of my life...got so schocked...i was MUGGING then decided to check my blog...and VIOLA...lol...got tagged...oh wellz here goes but i don't think i have ten...lol...not tt i m NOT weird but i have very little known facts cos i m so VOCAL!! woots!!! hahaha...hope my class pple dun see this.
Rules of the game:Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about you.People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag-backs!
PPle dun be freaked out kay?? my level of weird is like HELL weird

1. I fantasize a damn lot...and about just about everything...I daydream about my future, wat i would be in another lifetime, wat i m NOT (hmm...like daydream tt i m a talented singer? Lol but i noe i m not la)
2. I m actually very very afraid of REJECTION...tt is why before i go up to public speak...i m damn scared...but i PRETEND to be undaunted
3. Kay...this is not a little known fact...BUT ITS WEIRD!! I m actually NOT THAT in love w Lee Hom...i just appreciate his talent and accent...I DON'T THINK HE'S GOOD LOOKING AT ALL...*shocked*
4. I'm a REALLY REALLY contradicted person...i don't think tt there is anyone as contradicted as i m...i'm talkative but sometimes i just shut up and dun say a word...I love attention but sometimes i wish tt i was not so "attention-seeking"...I hate being alone, yet at times i ENJOY walking around at malls ALONE...I love being unique (tt is wat i strive for ALL the time) but sometimes i regret it cos sometimes pple find it hard to relate to me...I LOVE KIDS, but i m SURE AS HELL i don't want my own...maybe i'll adopt...lol...and the list is endless
5. I talk to MYSELF...ALOT
6. I sing DAMN LOUD...in the BATHROom...lol i know alot of pple do tt...but i really think its loud...
7. I MISS PW!!! weird rite? lol...i think i miss doing stuff like interviews and meeting up w my PW mates...LOL
8. I percieve myself as shy...REALLY... i hate to be left in awkward situations...i dun really like approaching pple.
9. I hate my VOICE...i think i sound like A GUY...
10. I m a LIST-FREAK...i come up with lists for almost everything...even though i m not ORGANISED AT ALL

yup tt is about it...lol...sorry if its not interesting..there are some stuff that are totally off the NC16 list...LOL...JOKING!!! no la...i guess i'm so vocal and predictable tt pple know me far too well

Haha...and tt pple i tagged...btw i noe they wun reply til AFTER CTS...hmm...LENG!! Char. Shar. lol!! i run out of pple to tag!! lol...tired la dun wan to think le...

I LUV THIS SONG!!

2007-06-14T00:12:00.001-07:00

Haahaha this is by BoA anD Mflo...hahaha...i know its a damn old song but its nice...if anyone out there has it send it to me kay?? please?? thanks!! hahaha or anything by m'flo is okay too..i think m flo rocks...hahahah

2007-06-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.

You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

My Personality?? Relax and Chill

2007-06-05T04:54:00.000-07:00

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Hahahaah...yeah too bad studying is NOT my passion

Feminist? Me?

2007-06-05T04:50:00.000-07:00

You Are 72% Feminist

You are certainly a feminist - whether you know it or not.
You believe in gender equality, at least most of the time. You also believe there are a few exceptions.

Are You a Feminist?

Hahahah...i m sure alot of the pple in my class would agree...hahaha...i m a feminist AND a violent person....mwhahahaha

2007-06-05T04:48:00.001-07:00

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

The Enthu Person!!!!

2007-06-05T04:45:00.000-07:00

You Are 7: The Enthusiast

You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.
You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.

Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.
You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

At Your Best: You are deeply involved in each experience. You appreciate life for what it is, and you take the time to enjoy each moment.

At Your Worst: You are greedy, self centered, impulsive, and insatiable.

Your Fixation: Gluttony

Your Primary Fear: Deprivation and pain

Your Primary Desire: To be satisfied and content

Other Number 7's: Howard Stern, Cameron Diaz, Robin Williams, Jim Carey, and Jenny Mccarthy.

What Number Are You?

Hmmm...actually that is very very very true...hahaha...i huess i m kinda hyper but not in the jumpy sense but excitment to do things OTHER THEN study...hahahah

Thanks Kel

2007-06-03T00:10:00.001-07:00

Yesterday my sis shared with me a little of her wisdom...hahhaa...actually more of the wisdom she heard about but its wisdom all the same...so here goes(courtesy of kel):

There's a little bit of seriousness in: "I'm just kidding."
There's a little bit of curiosity in: "I'm just wondering."
There's a little bit of knowledge in: "I don't know."
And, most importantly, there's a little bit of emotion in: "I don't care."

Hahahaa....i think its really true...don't you?

Well...i though of my version...hahaha...dedicated to lee hom of course (btw someone just complained they miss my lee hom craze...rite char?)

I love you...haha...I'm just kidding.
I'm just wondering: Do you love me back?
I don't know if I'll love you for life,
But, honestly, I don't care...
Because I only want to enjoy the now...

Hahahaha...not everyone will get it I'm afraid...

Eng Translation of Du chang qing ge

2007-05-30T02:23:00.000-07:00

Woots!!! I did it!!! i translated the lyrics!!! hahaha...i dunno why i love doing translation...hahahah...so fun!!! wrote it myslef!! hahaha...i rock!!! hahah...it was really fun!!! hahaha...but some part i did my own inference cos its like imagery in chinese then cannot tranlate into eng..hahaha...hope u enjoy...

In a moonlight and star-filled sky,
Who is the crying sky trying to imitate?
A period of breeze, a piece of song, brings the memories of you.
I only regret that in my prime, ego hides how I truly feel.
And I choose abandonment because of the smallest of things.

Springtime feels like bitter winter, as I hibernate with open eyes.
One heart with a disease, that sees leaves constantly falling
How can this love be so long?
That it winds into thousands of knots.

Is there a sword
That can truly separate a love that seems ever-entangled
Is there any thread
That can stitch back a torn relationship
Solitarily singing love songs is the worst agony
A torture that I cannot escape
Only in times or peril will my true feelings be divulged.
As we bid farewell, the memories linger on.
Solitarily singing love songs is the worst agony
Unable to keep worries at bay without you by my side.
Though my concern is hidden from my eyes, it remains in my heart
I can’t help but wish to hold your hands again

In a moonlight and star-filled sky,
Who is the crying sky trying to imitate?
I can no longer see her smile as she holds flowers in her hand
I can only hear you from the past,
Your promises made to me through your eyes.

Springtime feels like bitter winter, as I hibernate with open eyes.
As stubbornness drags happiness further and further away
While I refuse to back down just a step
As a result I lose all that I have.

Is there a sword
That can truly separate a love that seems ever-entangled
Is there any thread
That can stitch back a torn relationship
Solitarily singing love songs is the worst agony
A torture that I cannot escape
Only in times or peril will my true feelings be divulged.
As we bid farewell, the memories linger on.
Solitarily singing love songs is the worst agony
Unable to keep worries at bay without you by my side.
Though my concern is hidden from my eyes, it remains in my heart
I can’t help but wish to hold your hands again

As I stand, the willow tree dazzles my eyes
In a lonely alley,
There is someone crying in silence.

Is there a sword
That can truly separate a love that seems ever-entangled
Is there any thread
That can stitch back a torn relationship
Solitarily singing love songs is the worst agony
A torture that I cannot escape
Only in times or peril will my true feelings be divulged.
As we bid farewell, the memories linger on.
Solitarily singing love songs is the worst agony
Unable to keep worries at bay without you by my side.
Though my concern is hidden from my eyes, it remains in my heart
I can’t help but wish to hold your hands again

Du Chang Qing Ge

2007-05-28T21:29:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha...i noe its damn Chi-Na...BUT I LOVE IT hahahah...i dunnoe but somehow it seems to fit how i m feeling now...hahaha....singing qing ge on my own...hahahaha...hope u like it...i noe its really a long time ago but when it come to chi songs...hahaha..i m really lag

tank:下弦月星满天
像谁泪涟涟
一阵风一首歌摇晃思念
只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言离别
selina:在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
一颗心一种病不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结
合:有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘
合:独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
合:独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手

tank:下弦月星满天像谁泪涟涟
她微笑她捧花都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言
selina:在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
看倔强带幸福越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切
selina:我站在柳絮扎眼寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然沉默泪流

Tank:
xia xuan yue xing man tian
xiang shui lei lian lian
yi zheng feng yi shou ge yao huang si nian
zhi hen nian shao ai cheng qian
wei xiao shi qing yan li bie

Selina:
zai chun tian guo dong tian zhang yan jing dong mian
yi ke xing yi zhong bing bu ting luo ye
jiu qing zhen mo na mo chang
da le rao le ji qian jie

ALL:
you mei you yi ba jian
ke yi zhan duan le ou duan shi lian
you mei you yi tiao xian
neng feng che shan le yan
du chang qing ge zui ku she
tao bu liao de zhe mo
dang sheng shi xiang shu shuo chu kou
bie hou xuan nian yi jiu
du chang qing ge zui ku she
guan bu zhu de li chou
gan shang mei tou you shang xing tou
wo hao xiang zai nuan he ni shou

Tank:
xia xuan ye xing man tian xiang shui lei lian lian
ta wei xiao ta peng hua dou kan bu jian
wo zhi ting zhe ni chong qian
peng zhe shen zhang de shi yan

Selina:
zai chun tian guo dong tian zhang yan jing dong mian
kan jue jiang dai xin fu yue zhou yue yuan
you shi bu yuan rang yi dian
zui hou que shi qu yi qie

Selina:
wo zhan zai liu shu za yan ji mo hu tong
shui zai nong tang tu rang cheng mo lei liu

Class CIP

2007-05-27T04:00:00.000-07:00

Hahaha...yesterday was the class cip day...hahah...i have to admit i was kind of disgruntled when i was told to come early...so i put my alarm at 6...then snooze all the way to 6.30!! hahaha...i noe...i m a lazy bum...oh wellz... Then my mom dropped me off at Lavender MRT station and i took it down all the way to Tampines...POINT OF INFORMATION: i hate that area. Cos i get lost EVERY SINGLE TIME i m there...i have been there like 3 times?? and i get lost....and end up looking damn blur and asking for directions...harhar....

Then we finally got to the primary school (we ran there by the way)... and we had to prepare the games...Then we faced one problem...the letters that we written on paper won't sink...it was in a pail of flour+water...then the paper was put into ziplog (dunno how to spell) bags... so i had a crazy idea...to put the remaining dry flour into the bags as well...problem 2: we had no spoon to pour it in and pouring directly causes too much spillage...hah...so we did the next best thing...use straws...first, we dipped the straw into the flour...then transfer the straw to the ziplog bag and it would not come out..so i had no choice but to...blow... hahahaha...all of the guys were calling me a "druggie" and i had to agree with them...hahahah. it was sooo funny... hahahah...expect that i had the taste of flour all over my mouth..bleh...

Then we played the station games and i was so happy to "sabo" some of my class mates!! hahaha sorry peeps!! its all in the name of good fun!! hahaha.... After that was joe's IQ game...wah some of the kids are really smart..i hate to admit it but some of the questions, i don't even noe the answer...hahaha...there was also this dress up game and joe made so much noise...hahaha...it was quite comical.... he was like " Haiya...U CANNOT WIN ONE LA!! GIVE UP!!" hahahaah

Then later, during free and easy this gurl came up to me... she asked "Steffi ce ce...can i ask you a question??" then i smiled and said "Sure...what do u wanna ask??" hahaha and she asked "Why u loko so much like Olinda ce ce?" I ALMOST FAINTED!! hahahaha...i dun look like her at all... do i?? Hahahaha...aniway...then chu ling was asking her " the before or after oli?" so mean!! hahahaha but that gurl really quite cute la...such a female chauvinist!! just like me!! hahaha...SHE HATES TIM!! hahaah whenever tim trie to talk to her...she is like "one more word from you and i'll see u in supreme court!!" hahahah...funny....

Then later that same girl asked me to st down and started filling my fingers with stickers...so sweet... hahahah... she said all the other ce ce onli got 3 then she give me 5...hahaha...yay!! i m a fav!! she even told me to give her my autograph...hahahah...damn funny la!! then she said "Steffi ce ce...you must believe me...one day u'll be famous...you can go upstage to perform...really...believe me" hahahaha...i was flattered though i noe it is not true la...

Overall it was fun la and i can't wait to see them again...June 8th

Perfection

2007-05-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

I just realised the huge irony behind my blog site...perfect is not my thing...hmm...perfection...So what is it? Getting all As...looking the slimmest? being the smartest? being the coolest? being the hottest? being the happiest? the list just grows longer and longer...Then i realised that actually there is a diffrerent definition to perfection...Everyone sees it differently...so if the meanings of Perfection is so diverse...what does it become? Something never attainable....or something we look for in life when it is right beside us...

I always think...damn i wish i were perfect...i wish that I were smart, thin(definitely), popular, loved and happy....I wish that my special someone will like me....i wish i would stop failing my phy...I wish i were good in sports...i wish i were good in music and dance...I wish about so many things...but i end up being so upset when i can NEVER attain them...

Perfection...wat is it to me?? hmm...i guess its a balance in life that i have to find...call me weird but...i guess to me it is...perfection is not to be someone whom everyone envies...perfection is to be happy with yourself... i guess to put it simply...its to be content...be happy with what you have and viola...Perfect! I m popular cos i have so many friends who truly care about me...I m happy cos i have eveything...a good family, good school, lovely classmates, relative well off... I may not be thin...but at least i m not obese...My special someone may never love me...but oh well...there are so many other people who love me for who i m so...so i don't have to change into someone i m not...

As for things that i want to achieve...perfection is in HAVING those dreams...its perfection because i have direction in life..i have somewhere to go... so i guess PERFECT IS MY THING...isn't it?

Chu, this one's for you

2007-05-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hey...i loved your concert tonight...really enjoyed myself!! Congrats, the concert really was a success...I luv your gold hat...so cute!! heh...Oh and you look nice in a skirt...very cute...and motherly...hahah...joking joking...hahaah... You did well tonight babe...hahah...dunnoe why i can't stop saying babe... haahha...Ani wway...I just wanted to say that from my experience as a dancer, you will love these memories and down the road of life...YOU'LL END UP SMILLING...I hope tonight was more memorable as it was mine....really proud of u babe...hahaha...And no matter what... my primary reason for going was YOU!! i hope u noe what i mean...hahaha...i had no regrets...

Jia You babe...hope to see u perform more!! and more SKIRTS!! heh

2007-05-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

This is an extremely stupid and immpractical action...But then again, these past few days i have not been very rational...

Relationships...honestly, i have never had one...but now i think about it?? does it honestly do any good? you THINK you like that person but when you actually go out with them, they are totally different form what you expect...The inevitable result then comes: ugly sobby break ups. Is it worth it? I dun think so....However, if you don't try, then you will not be any better off...will you? People say it is better having had experienced then never before...But how much truth is in that? Is it better to lose a fren just for a few months fun...or to have a life-long fren?? Truthfully, I have no idea...

The reason why i m so afraid of relationships? Because of the sad realisation...that the one you love is not who he/she turned out to be...you start off a relationship so excited and full of hope...but as the realtionship drags...your "mirror-facade" breaks into a million pieces and before you know it, you have been thrown into the whirld wind of torture...until the break up that is...Yah yah i know that there are the sweet time sin a relationship but who can guarantee that relationships and sweeter then bitter?? No one...each relationship is diffrent...the level of sugar and spice different and unexpected...BUT why take the gamble?? its just like the game of DEAL OR NO DEAL...take the deal and stay frens...you take home the consolation...NO deal...get ready to have the time of your life...in heaven or hell...

Other then relationships, there is the worst part...crushes, one sided fondness...you like a person, but not dare to take that initiative to find out more...and end up secretly, silently, individually ponding over nothingness...worth it? i think not...but the more you don't want to think about it...the more it goes into your head...the more is stays like a...hmmm....a leech...like a stomach ache tt won't go away... Other then that, you also start doing stupid things....and i really do mean stupid...but all of the effort goes to waste...so what's the point...and yet people can't help it...

Mankind...relationships...crushes...haiz...what more can i say?

Story Chapter 3

2007-05-19T21:03:00.000-07:00

"Liz! I'm home!" Nick's reverberated across our home. I smiled and dropped my cooking utensils. As I ran towards the hallway, I wiped my hands on the apron tied around my waist. I saw him standing at the doorway and beamed. Following our daily ritual, I ran towards him and threw myself into his embrace. Then i saw someone behind him: the all-too good-looking, all-too rugged -- Brandon.

When Nick put me down again, I peered over Nick's shoulder and smiled warmly at Brandon. I have been married for 3 months and have been "vaccinated" against him. Haven't I? I shook my head as if this would shake away the silly notion from my mind. Once again I smiled and teased, "You dare to come back after my roast turkey??" He even had the cheek to laugh in my FACE! He was roaring with laughter and Nick even accompanied him as I thought of 2 weeks ago...
It was Nick's birthday and I wanted to do something special. Even though turkey was NOT my speciality, I knew it was Nick's favourite and I was determined to prepare it. Not only that, I also had the sudden inspiration to bake a cake for him. Soon after that, I had one inspiration after another and before long, a simple birthday meal became a 5 course dinner: salad, soup, appetizer, main course and dessert.

My cooking skills are passable but a 5 course meal has beyond my ability. As a result, the kitchen became my battleground. Pots were caked with gravy, sauces were spilt all over the table top, plates were stashed and stacked over the basin, overflowing immensely. Even I barely survived the encounter. My hair had in a mess, flour powdered over my face, gravy dyed my dress and my apron had seen much much better days. Before I could cover up my mistakes and do damage control, Nick came home. Lady Fate must have been having a field day as on this very day, Nick chose to surpirise me by sneaking up on me in the kitchen. (He payed for that action very dearly much later at night.) However, as Fate would have it, Nick had invited Brandon home for dinner and as a result I had two men gwaking at the enormous mess I had and staring at my worse-for-wear appearance. At the very end, after the 2 men stopped laughing we had a very simple meal for dinner: meatloaf.

That was 2 weeks ago and now as i stood there glaring at the 2 of them, I smiled inwardy, relieved that today's meal would be a huge success in comparison. "If the 2 of you don't stop, one of you will have a cold, empty dish," I stated coldly to Brandon, then turned to Nick, my eyes glemaing with evil, and continued "and the other...will have a very cold empty sheet..." Like a charm, both men stopped laughing. Brandon then slapped Nick at the back and whispered (not very softly) sympathetically, "Well... you got yourself a nice, demure, not to mention DEADLY wife..." I couldn't help it and burst out laughing.

For dinner we had steak and mashed potatoes and seemed to be having an animated conversation, when I went into the kitchen to get some more steak for them. When i came back, the atmosphere was worlds different. Brandon was frowning and Nick was straing blankly at the table cloth. "Now what has gotten into the 2 of you?" I asked, trying desperately to liven up the atmosphere once again...but it was no use...

2007-05-17T05:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE HOM!!
May all your dreams come true and success always be your shining star!!

Question 3

2007-05-17T05:09:00.001-07:00

3. Why m i even writting this on my blog?

At first...my blog was somewhere i could write about my innnermost feelings...what i wish to convey to the world yet afraid of doing it face-to-face....but...after today...that kind of changed....Today during GP, ME and JI...were like reading my blog in front of me...and it was so weird to see thier expressions and hear then reading it...ALOUD.....At that poinof time...i was totally convinced that I WOULD NEVER BE SO STUPID AS TO WRITE MY INNER MOST FEELINGS ANYMORE~~but now after claming down....i still guess its ok...as long as i dun check my blog in front of pple that i noe...i honestly dun really care if they are shocked or look at me differently...becos what i write is who i am and nothing will change that...neither do i want to have people misunderstanding me or thinking thati was another "personality"...

Also, my blog is where i could reeflect upon alot of things...as i m doing now...it is my way of sitting down...being clam and start writting...i really learnt alot more about myself through my blog...weird isn't it? but its the truth...i look at myself from a different perspective and just be so shallow as to look at the surface...And honestly....i don't mind if everyone else learns and reflects with me as well...

Lastly, my blog is where i have my own little world...where i can write about whatever or whoever i want to...my blog is for my opnions no matter how radical they may be...and for that reason...ITS MY BLOG...my thoughts and my feelings...so i guess its a part of me...some of u out there may not agree with me...but hey i m open to other's opnions...but if u dun like me or what i say...then honestly...its your choice to read it or not...Kay tt might have sounded kind of harsh but its how i feel...as in...my blog is for me to voice out my opnions and not to suck up to others or the "conformist" opnions...I state whatever i feel...rite or wrong

I m so sorry that this post may seem a little harsh but i guess i m kind of serious w my blog...hahaha.i really am not mad or anything...just being dead serious...man...i need to cheer up...maybe a lee hom song might help...dunno y i suddenly feel so moody....maybe i m just tired...just got back form school...NOW FOR LEE HOM!! heh :)

Time for Question 2

2007-05-16T04:04:00.000-07:00

Hahahah...kay....question 2...what role does he play?

Hmmm....dis one could be quite hard to explain...

Kay 1st, he represents all the qualities i see in a guy...AMERICAN CHINESE....kind of a must for me la...i dun really find interest in guys whu dun speak w a accent...sorry!! i noe tt is very racist of me...but i can't imagine a guy who goes out w me converse all the time in "broken england"... Also he's got talent...i dun need a guy with musical talent but at least one talent...something that makes him unique, something that i can love him for and something that is...well, him. Third...i like guys with confidence and charm...he does not have to be like good looking or really hot...just confident of himself and THAT i find diff to look for in a guy...maybe not at this age yet la...hmm...i guess that is all i ask in a guy...is that weird?? I dun ask for him to love me w all his heart (cos i dun believe in true love or soulmate crap...sorry...but i dun) and i dun demand that he love me now and forever (cos i dun believe in forever love...no matter how much lee hom sing about it...i still dun believe it...tis crap)

2nd...Lee Hom to me is like my pillar of strength...u all might say i m obssesed, crazy or just plain freaky...but he is...everytime something upsets me or makes me think this world stinks...i just listen to his songs and it really makes me feel better again...and i think i also take him as my role model. Firstly, he fought for his dreams....no matter how bleak...he fought for it and he succeded and that is what i reallly respect...work towards your dreams...Secondly, he is so serious about what he does....and i think that is the kind of attitude i wanna adopt...(dun say i sound like mr yong...puhlease...tt will kill me....i juz wanna be like my husband)

Last, i guess i can relate to him better than any other singer...Each singer...comes from a specific country and respects his or her heritage (a unique heritage i might add) and the thing is he's like me...I dunno where i belong...I come from Indo...yet to me Indo is like my holiday destination...I m a Spore PR and my loyalty is to Spore yet sometimes i feel as if i m treated differently...I m not a true blue Singaporean....Now looking at Lee Hom...he grew up in the states...but now he is venturing into purely chinese cultural music...so i guess it should be equally awkward...but to him...he adapts to it so easily...he repects all his roots (american and chinese) and does not try to stay stubborn on any side...So i guess i learn from that...I M BOTH INDO AND SPOREAN....i love spore but also indo...i guess i m still finding that balance but lee hom helps

My thoughts

2007-05-15T03:31:00.000-07:00

These few days i have been thinking abut quite a few things (by the way...u will noe its bad if my imagination runs wilds...harhar):
1. Why am i so obsessed over Lee Hom?
2. What role does he play in my life?
3. Why m i even writting this on my blog?
4. Why do i even have a blog?(i was thinking of this as i read shar's blog)
HEH...just realised its alot of questions...so how bout i explain each one every day?

Firstly...Lee Hom...All my friends are like *groan* every time I show them this silly grin on my face...they will be like "Lee Hom? Again?"...NOT that i blame them...i mean i guess it can be kind of annoying... And my entire CLASS knows my obsession for him...even deyao did this GC thingy with me professing my love for Lee Hom... So it makes me think...why am i so obessed over him when other girls are like evidently not as crazy as me? WHY? i thought of it over the past few days...and honestly, i could not come up with a definite answer...

I mean...i know that i have NO chance with him...i know that...even if by the bigest MIRACLE in life...i actually get the chance to meet him...and an even more impossible miracle of him interested in me...I WILL NOT DATE HIM...NOT AT ALL...why? he can't give me the security i want...Also, we have religious differences and A HUGE age gap...So if there is no chance why be so obsessed?? You can call me weird but i think that it is PRECISELY that he and I have no chance together that i can be so obessed...to tell u the truth...I M SCARED. i m scared of relationships...yet when every you see them, read about them or have anything to do with them...I kind of envy them, yet fear it with my life...ONCE i find out someone likes me...I RUN...i seriously mean RUN LIKE HELL....you might be laughing your head off and saying something along the lines of "someone would actually LIKE her??" hahaha....but its the truth that i fear relationships. So i guess here's how Lee Hom comes into the picture. HE...will never ask me out. HE...will never treat me any differently then filling up my windows media player. and lastly...HE sets the standard...i kind of have no interest in other guys cos they can never compare to him..so i will never have to put myself into the danger of getting into a relationship...

Another reason that i m so obsessed with him is just to keep me sane. When i m under a lot a lot of pressure...i need to let my imagination go wild... and w Lee Hom (whose like perfect by my standards) my imagination can go as wild as...i dun even noe what...but wild...and that is my way of not buckling under the immense stress...

The last reason...is really sad la..in my opinion...but its a reason all the same and i suspect that this reason is more significant then i want it to be... TO ME LEE HOM HAS BEEN WHAT I HAVE CREATED MY PERSONALITY AROUND....i crave uniqueness...i really do....i strive on being different...and i guess i had subconciously used him...To almost all my frens i m first and foremost "THE LEE HOM FREAK" and even to my classmates...and i guess i like it...it has become my personality...that i m the weird lee hom freak...call me weird but i m different all the same... Perfect is not my thing but being unique is...

Lee hom's new song!!

2007-05-12T04:17:00.001-07:00

I got it! i got it!! lee hom's new song!! i kinda like it ...but tt is after hearing it like a few times...i think it suits my blog...life is just a game...and he sings ren sheng ru xi...xi ru ren sheng!! hahaha...we got telephathy!!! hahaha

AWWW

2007-05-12T02:29:00.000-07:00

You know what?? i just found the CUTEST, MOST ADORABLE PIC of my husband to date!! its really really cute!!!

Isn't it just adorable??? my heart is melting!!!

2007-05-12T01:59:00.000-07:00

Jan

Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom showsemotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.

Feb

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Mar

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

Apr

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude.Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

May (MY HUSBAND'S BDAE!!)

Stubborn and hard-hearted (WELL HE WAS STUBBORN ENOUGH TO STOP STUDYING SCIENCE TO BE A DOC AND GO FOR MUSIC!!). Strong-willed and highly motivated (MOTIVATED TOWARD MUSIC..ALWAYS). Sharp thoughts. Easily angered (ONLY WHEN PPLE SAY HE'S GAY...). Attracts others and loves attention (HE WOULD NOT BE A SINGER IF HE DID NOT LIKE ATTENTION). Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally (WOOT!! HOT BOD!!). Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex (AWW...THAT IS SO ENDEARING!). Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain) (HE'S LEFT HANDED!!! BUT FOR MUSIC ITS THE RIGHT BRAIN RITE? SO HE'S USING BOTH!!). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck (EAR?? NO!! THAT WOULD MEAN HE'S LIKE BEETHOVEN!! NO!! MY HUSBAND'S PERFECT!!)). Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing.Loves literature and the arts (HEH...DUH!). Loves traveling (HE DOES TRAVEL ALOT). Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children (YAY! I DUN WAN KIDS TOO!! OKIE...TOO MUCH INFO HUH?). Hardworking (ALWAYS SO SERIOUS WHEN IT COMES TO HIS MUSIC). High-spirited.

Jun

You've got the best personality (HAHAH!!YAY!! I M A WINNING PERSONALITY!) and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt (FLIRT?! NEVER! UNLESS W LEE HOM LA! THEN ITS OK...) and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie (WOO!!!!! YES YES YES!!! I KNEW IT!! ME AND LEE HOM ARE DESTINCED TO BE TOGETHER!!!). It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection (HAHAHA...STILL COLLECTING LA...LEE HOM'S ALBUMS). You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself (OMG!! MAYBE TT IS HOW I'LL MEET HIM!!)- heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

Jul

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strongsense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Aug

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

Sept

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous.Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

Oct

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

Nov

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship withsomeone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

Dec

This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

2007-05-12T01:40:00.000-07:00

This is pretty neat.

If your birthday is on...... Oh i m red by the way(tt is why u can see my comments...and lee hom' may 17th...so its...GOLD!!! omg!! tt was the colour i wanted to be...i was like...man...i wanna be gold...then he's it!!goash!! yay...k so i'll definitely be commenting on tt too...Oh and i just realised my lee hom's bdae is coming up! prepare gifts u guys!!

December 23rd~ January 1st = Red
January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange
January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow
January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink
February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue
February 9th ~ February 18th = Green
February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown
March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua
March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime
March 21st = Black
March 22nd ~March 31st = Purple
April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy
April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver
April 21st ~ April 30th = White
May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue
May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold
May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream
June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey
June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon
June 24th = Grey
June 25th ~ July 4th = Red
July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange
July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow
July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink
August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue
August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green
August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown
September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua
September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime
September 23rd = Olive
September ! 24th ~October 3rd = Purple
October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy
October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver
October 24th ~ November 11th = White
Novem! ber 12th ~ November 21st = Gold
November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream
December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey
December 12th ~ December 21st = Maroon
December 22nd = Teal

*RED* *Cute and lovable type (YAY!!HAHAH I KNEW I WAS NOT "ACT"CUTE BUT REALLY ORIGIANLLY CUTE!!), You are picky but always in love (HOW TRUE!!PICKY OF ME TO CHOOSE LEE HOM AND ALWAYS IN LOVE WITH HIM!!)...and liked to be loved (OF COURSE!! WHU WOULD NOT WANT TO BE LOVED BY A STAR?). Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times (HMM...QUITE TRUE...BUT AS LONG AS I THINK OF LEE HOM..IT MAKES MY DAY!!). Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are (SOUNDS SO MUCH LIKE HIM...YOU NOE WHU "HIM" IS RITE?). Likes people that are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

*CREAM* *Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long time.

*TEAL* *You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead and it is easy for you to make new friends.

*GREY* *You are attractive and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up someone's day. You know what to say at the right time and you have good sense of humor

GREEN* *You get along well with new people. You are not really a>shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.

*GOLD* *You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going (HAHA...YEAH YOU SOUND SEE HIM ON GAME SHOWS...ITS SO FUNNY!!HAHAHA). It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time (MAN!! I HOPE TT ITS ME!!HAHAH!!JOKIN!).

*PINK* *You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.

*YELLOW* *You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of a romantic relationship.

*MAROON** You are intelligent and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you're patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

*ORANGE* *You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach and you really work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have. You sometimes over react because you are sensitive.

*PURPLE* *You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.

*LIME* *You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.

*SILVER* *You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new things. You like to challenge yourself and you learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and you give good advice. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.

*BLACK* *You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.

*OLIVE* *You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, people that are easy to talk but don't envy other people easily.

*BROWN* **You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily.

*BLUE* **You may have low self-esteem, and can be very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.

*NAVY* **You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.

*WHITE* **You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes weird, but everyone loves that in you.

*AQUA* **Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily!! It's hard to find love for you, and get lost in love easily. Sometimes get hurt by love

Lee Hom-Mile High

2007-05-12T01:38:00.001-07:00

I just realised my husband's damn sexy...hahah..KIDDING!! i realised that a long long tima ago...but now i have newly recharged my appreciation for his sexiness...hahaha...i luv him singing in eng!!!

2007-05-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

Damn long time no post!! hahaha oh wellzzz....dunnoe how to continue story...will do it soon...hahaha.... but first...

What does your name mean? damn funny

Example:

S- Easy to fall in love with. (hee...i wish lee hom would noe tt!)
T- You're loyal to those you love. (YEP!!! LEE HOM FOREVER BABY)
E- Damn good kisser. (ermz not sure...but i noe lee hom is one! his tongue can twist 360deg!!!)
F- People adore you (hahaha...thanks you thank you!! to all my fans out there!)
F- People adore you (yeah yeah...its so true u have to repeat it!)
I- You have a fine ass (well...that's a nice ending!)

A - You like to drink.
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fuckin sexy.
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- Always ready.

OF COURSE! how could i forget my darling
L- You live to have fun. (heh...he's a singer damn it!!hey shows its accurate!)
E- Damn good kisser
E- Damn good kisser (its soooo true its repeated!!)

H- You have a very good personality and looks. (hahah...dito)
O- You are one of the best in bed. (ermz...*cough cough*)
M- Success comes easily to you. (u can say tt again...he's like always successful!!)

Some more writting

2007-04-25T06:52:00.001-07:00

Chapter 1 Part 2

Two months later

Everyone says that a bride on her wedding day is the epitome of sublime beauty, she radiates happiness and contentment. Funny how one’s wedding day can make one feel so deliriously happy. As I sit at the dressing table and watching everyone else bustle about. People say that the bride should be immersed in her own little world, oblivious to everything around her. Yet, I seem to be too preoccupied watching everyone rush around to think of anything else, much less to say close into my own little world. Before I knew it, my friend and bride’s maid, Meredith, whispered into my ear “Liz? They’re all expecting you…” As I turn my head to face her, her lips spread into a mischievous, knowing smile.

I walked to the church doors while the emotion battled inside me. I felt happy yet afraid of what the future would bring for us. I was nervous for the wedding ceremony, yet felt unusually calm as I knew he would be there with me. I knew that I was loved and loved him just as much, yet experienced the nagging feeling that I could enjoy so much more. I took a deep breath and pushed all my thought to the back of my mind. Now, I should no longer think of anything else but him, he deserved that. From now, we would build our lives around each other and from this moment forth, I would be dedicated to him, as him to me.

The church pianist started to play the usual clichéd piece and, as previously practiced; I walked slowly but with determination, down the red carpet. I looked to my sides and saw all the people whom I loved so dearly. They we smiling at me, wishing me well and some were even crying and lightly dabbing their cheeks with their handkerchiefs. I was touched at the fierce loyalty for me that they displayed, which was evident from their eyes.

The red carpet was coming to an end. To the right, I saw Brandon, ever-impeccably dressed in a suit with that stubborn lock of hair on his forehead. I had to admit, until now, I still had the urge to walk up to him and brush the lock away. But it was not to be. Brandon: was the best man…I now look at my future husband, the groom…Nick…

P.S. its very cliched i noe...haiz...tt is all i can write for now...oh and i forgot to say that this story is situated in America, just before World War 2...

My writting

2007-04-24T03:30:00.000-07:00

I just realised how long it has been since i last wrote a story... so i decided to slowly craft one...hahah...just decided to post it up as my post...hahaha...i dun think anione will inderstand my opening...Hahaha...kay...just to give a short background to my cliched story...it a romance by the way...and i won't write about lee hom, lest all of u send me to IMH!! hahaha

Kay this story is about 3 friends who grew up together, Brandon, Elizabeth and Nick (yah i noe the names damn cliche but whatever...my writting skills are rusty!). Well, the 3 of them are best friends but a lot of circumstances bring them on a journey of love, death and friendship. Yeah i noe this does not ell u all much but i have not exactly finnish my storyline...hahaha

Chapter 1 Part 1

“I can’t give you what you want, Liz. You know that as well as I…”said Brandon with a grim expression that I so rarely see. How stupid of me. What had made me expect so much from him? Ha! I must be crazy. We had grown up together and it was a known fact that he could never, would never want to settle down. And THAT was where we were different. THAT was what I wanted, no, what I expected from a man. I needed security, need a home, need to know that I was loved and not taken for granted. But such sadistical irony, for I fell for a man who could never give me that. Hot tears unwillingly tumbled down my cheeks and I abruptly turn around, my back now towards him, unwilling to let him see me cry. I steadied my voice and replied, “I…I understand perfectly! I knew you could never give me that family life that I have always wanted. Its…Its perfectly fine. I just hope that we can still be friends…like we always were..” Having said this, I wiped away my tears and turned to face him, eyes full of hope. He sighed, obviously relieved and smiled. Unable to control myself, I smiled back, this time… a true smile…

P.S. i wil continue with it asap...but for now this is all i can do cos i need to do my work...

2007-04-20T02:22:00.000-07:00

As we sit in our classrooms, stone in our lectures,
we seem oblivious to the pain and suffering around us.
Does anyone think about the tears and the blood,
that washes over others in a world different from ours.
THEIR world is full of fear and things to be feared.
THEIR world is full of meetings then sudden seperations.
THIER world is full of discrimination against everything.
THEIR world is simply...simply full of things we cannot and wil not comprehend.

While THEIR world revolves, OURS does too.
As OUR world continues, with new handphones,
new television series, new jokes, new competitions,
new exams, new friends, new obstacles that seem so difficult, yet so easy.

We forget that OUR world is also THEIRS...
And admist our smiles and problems that seem mountains high,
We forget their smiles are non-existant, their mountains greater.
Admist the death and massacre, admists the cries for mercy,
We talk of it, as if it were from another world.

People seem so full of hatred, so devoid of love.
Yet we seem so full of complains and full of unhappiness.
But can OUR pain compare to THEIRS?

Hiaz....sometimes this world is so full of dreadful things...people die ALL the time...i also dunno why i m so sadistic...but i just feel contented that for people in parts of the world where there is peace, they need not go thru such pain. In the parts of the world where we do not have to fear that at any point in time someone can just step into class and shoot at us like arcade games. In parts of the world where we can live our lives not knowing what bombs sound like. In parts of the world where we can smile and know that our loved ones are safe and every time they leave your front door, they will come back. There is just so so much that one can be contented with in this world...yet this fact is so easily forgotten and treated so insignificantly..............

2007-04-18T05:41:00.000-07:00

I noe!!! long time no post!!! Hahaha..i lag la....by a lot...no wonder char calls me dino.... hahaha....Alot has been happening other then the test, test and more tests!!! Haiz...i dun noe if i can survive....haiz... Oh AND I WAS PRETTY UPSET OVER DEBATE!! it was sad la...i think we lost in terms of style rather then points...but it was sad to see us kicked out in e 1st round...was really unexpected too...poor Chris...see was most affected

And for 2.4 Km I PASSED WITH A C!!! hahaha its all thanks to NIC, ISAAC, ME!!! btw me means ming en...not me....hahaha....kay nevermind....hahaha....i think its the onli c i got in my life...hahaha....really grateful...but thanks to that i feel really tempted to pass my 5 station this sat...hope it goes well...

Oh and for my intra gavel competition...I WON 1ST RUNNER UP!! hahaha...actually i was really glad i did not get 1st cos i noe i cannot live up to e expectations...hhahaha...then i volunteered for the Toastmaster of the day for the INTER gavel competitions...so hope that turn out well....kay better go update class blog....if not i will feel guilty...hahaha.

My Love Affair?

2007-04-03T04:23:00.000-07:00

Oh die...i m starting to feel that i m having an affair...somehow my heart flutters whenever i see tidus...I can't stand it he is so hot!! In Jap his name means "sun" which explains why he is sooo tan!!! I never knew i had a thing for tanned guys...i always thought i go for like fairer guys like lee hom!!! Hahaha...Christine laughed at me today...practically announcing to the whole lt that "I LOVE PIXELS" but i can't help it! as unreal as he is...he is irresistable!!! Die...my husbad is gonna be so upset....i have posted some pic of him...check out my new love affair.....

My thoughts...you may disagree

2007-03-27T01:14:00.000-07:00

Not a day passes without my thinking of me husband...hahah i truly am a lee hom freako....hahahaha...actually i lot of things happed the past few weeks that truly made me think about the value of bgr...I think that we must luv someone who is not just good looks but most importantly of good character...there are a lot of time that person may not be like the shuai-est person but having a good eart just melts your heart dun you think? If i told this to christine...she would probably say animatedly,"ahahaha...like QUAN"...but to me its like lee hom!! actually truthfully speaking he is not THAT good looking....he's got eye bags and all...but just his talent and everything rolled up into...just makes him so lovable!!!

Talking about bgr...i guess its sadistic of me...but i highly doubt that they last...break up is inevitable...even in marriage is also the same...people just can't love each other forever and ever...its not possible...what i see in you today...i may not see in the future...BUT...the main issue lies in how ou accept it...one must accept that the relationship will probably NOT work out... BEFORE one actually delves into a relationship...if u can accpet the fact te break up is ALMOST always inevitable, then can you get involved. What's the point of fighting for something that is no longer existent? Same case of guys and gurls...gurls should not cry and die over a break up and guys should not mope and try to fight to get back together...JUST ACCEPT IT!! i may not be a love expert...but i DO know that love usually doesn't work out so accept it in a gentlemanly/ladylike way...it does not help ANYONE to mope around...

2007-03-26T04:36:00.001-07:00

GOSH!!its only mon and i already want my weekend!!! HAHAHA....haiz...today morning there was a really heavy downpour...and evidently there were alot of latecomers...can you believe how many people from our class actually made it assembly?! 5!!! hahaha...SO FUNNY LA...only deyao, yingxu, CHU LING (YEAH...CHU LING...CAN U BELIEVE IT...CHU! NO OFFENSE!!) jessica and me...haahaha...i m sure mr low had an easy time attendance taking not like the usual craning his neck to find people...

today got the shock of my life!!!At first on our way to PE, xiao min told us the "new" teacher (cos our pervious teacher say she not working at NJC animore...but never said when she was quitting) and she said the new teacher made them run 12 rounds cos her fren's class was late!!! Wah...i totally chiong man!!!!!!I was so freaking scared la!!! Then ying xu confirmed the story, i was so tempted to just do a "dissapearing act"!! But luckily the teacher never change yet...

So for PE it was quite chiong la...for me, it was pretty chiong...we ran 6 round in total the average timing was 2.00 for guys and 2.30 for the gals per round....AFTER THAT STILL GOT SOMEMORE!!!!! we had to the bench exercises and for the gurl most of us kept staying on the bench til the teacher turn to look at us...hahaha....I m sure tomorrow pe gonna be gym la...perhaps lower body ex?

I was so happy!! today there was free period!!! Hahaha...instead of the usual chem lesson...truth be told totally no energy to listen to chem after PE...So me char and chris just sat at the bytes and chatted...ermz...bout the stuff gurls usally talk about ba...

Haha...then after school we (me, char and ji) meet xue yuan and chien wei...Hahaah....chien wei suddenly told me to say hi to ji...when i did, he just raised his eyebrows at me in his usual JI fashion and all of us agreed that its so...pervertic? Hahaha...then he said he learnt it in kindergraden and we were all saying that he must have scared off all the kids so he spent time mugging that is why he now so JI!! hahaha...no offense kays ji?

Then after that me and char was talking to each other when ji turn around and said we looked as if we were discussing some conspiracy..hahaha...then me and char look at each other then pretended to be like planning some attack on ji...hahahah....

Yups that was about it for today...

I m SOOO TOUCHED!!

2007-03-23T01:25:00.000-07:00

kays...i dun mean tuoched as in like violated touched...i mean heart touched!!! Charffi!!!! She wrote about me so many times in her blog!!! Hahaha...but i just realised so many things happen tt is so "farny"!!!Hahaah...but i lazy to rite eh...maybe i should copy hers...hehehehe....

(extract 1)

ok.. assembly.. nothin much happened.
before lecture began, me, christine, steffi n mich were toking animatedly abt fahrenheit! i think wu zun's the most shuai, jiro and aaron damn cute. like boy-boy. christine and mich sort-of agree. but steffi gave a diao look. her heart's with lee hom la.

forgot to bring specs today, so uber super helpful steffi helped me copy notes.
everybody else, except me, were so seeped into their notes.
feeling bored, i looked ard n laughed to myself.
quite funny to see the different "stressed" expressions.
if msn allows me to create emotions, i would have a lot of ideas!

yu ling damn random.
in the middle of the lecture, stood up and walked out.
LOL. me and steffi laughed for abt 5 mins. crazy fellows.
then steffi stomach pain cos of hiong tues pe. ahaha.
she laughed and cried out "pain!" at the same time.

(end of extract 1)

Hhahaah...i think i damn lame....

(eXTRACT 2)
GP! the slackest tutorial!!
at TA block, steffi accompanied me to the toilet. but i changed my mind due to the long queue.
so we saundered to our classrm.
put down our bags slowly.
admired eng chiew's envelope.
then i changed my mind agn.
we stood outside for a moment. and think.
of which toilet to go to. 3 options. each roughly the same dist.
lol. was retarded la. stood outside to choose our toilet. ahah!

our class only greeted our dearest tutor, ms ong, 20mins after the previous bell had gone.
wonderful!
gp class, to me, is more of a laughing session. esp, the last row ppl.
today, we went thru ct essay qn 12 abt teenage years.
ms ong asked us how to define teenage yrs.
many ans were given.. some sounded wrong..
maturity? 13-19yrs old? 13-21?(no diff.) puberty stage? productivity?(LOL!)
wad i feel is innocence. which was the topic of the focus grp discussion aft sch with cw, steffi and ji on mon.
but anws, me, ji and steffi were having our own discussion. on teenage angst.
steffi damn saddist. tok abt depression.
ji whole day act cute. he's like totally different from his normal self.
made the girls sitting in front of us laughed.
asked him which gal he wants to attract. but he denied it. haha.

(eND OF EXTRACT2)

hAHAAHA!!!Damn funny!!!that was wat happened yesterday!!! Hahaha...today also got alot of funny things happen...

During assembly i was talking bout my husband again to mich when suddenly char turn around and look at me with this bored expression on her face...then she said "toking bout lee hom?" Hahaha...kay...i think onli i found tt funny....Then fast forward to GP!!!MY FAV LESSON...actually i quite pity our gp tutor she is so nice that all of us keep taking advantage of her...She wanted to ask for 5 dollars for class GP fund but she looked so embarrassed and look as if she felt bad to ask for it!!! Gosh...she is soooo nice...then again it was major laughing session but not as siao as yest cos no energy already...After GP me and char went for "drinks" at happy hour break...hahaha....had cocktail...longan cocktail...we even had the nerve to cheers...hahahaha....

Oh i just tot of something damn funny...when we were teasing ji about how he was sooo smart that he did not even need to study...he looked at us with this guilty expression and said "actually...i got mug one la....got la...." hahaha....he said it as if it were a crime!! hahaha...JI!! stop acting cute la!!!

CTs...

2007-03-23T01:14:00.000-07:00

I have officially flunked my CTs..welll maybe not ALL my CTs but most...surprisingly...i m not tt upset!!! I guess i just noe that i have to buck up but i dun see the grades as something i should die over...Maybe its cos i have lee hom by my side!!! Hahaha....kidding...but its just CTS la...so muz work harder and hope i dun fail animore!!! Come to think of it i kinda can't wait for A levels to be over...THEN CAN ENJOY!!! Hahaha...wonder what i'll do after A's?? I guess get a part time job and learn somthing? new language maybe? maybe....Hahaha...talking about jobs there is one job that i have been playing around with...like something that i might want to be...I have not told anyone about this idea yet...cos it seems quite absurd...hahaha....i guess its about time to say it...I WANNA BE A MUSIC PRODUCER!! but it does not seem that possible considering i have no music talent at all, much less to say music background...haiz...but i reallly like to listen to songs and come up with MVs...its so cool....haiz....

I am going Crazy

2007-03-22T00:21:00.000-07:00

Its not so much the fact that i m losing my mind that affects me...but how much i m sinking so deep to the point of no return that scares me...

At first i did not really thin of it as an issue...but now the more i think about my osession for my husband is getting a little toooo obsessive...bit dangerous huh? Die la~!!!How? Oh and i must share with all of you my views on concerts and autograph sessions!!!

I WILL NEVER GO TO A LEE HOM AUTOGRAPH SESSION OR CONCERT!!!Why? Can you imagine how painful it would be...to be so excited that you can finally meet the "light of YOUR life" and then when it comes to tt ultimate moment........he just shakes your hand and says thank you as if you are invisible...not only tt you will also meet a whole lot of people who are equally crazy about him...whats the point?

Furthermore, rather then spend 100 dollars on his concert why not just by the dvd? then you can see him close up (better then at the stadium) and watch it again and again....Hhaah...Also it cheaper too!!!

Thus. i would rather sacrifice all my chance of seeing him then let him see me as nothing...

Okay...i m going so mad...die!!!!

To Kel

2007-03-13T19:04:00.000-07:00

So...Kel since you r always complainig about how i dun mention you in any of my posts, I'll dedicate one whole post to you! Happy? Firstly, I'd like to say: STOP STEALING MY HANDPHONE!!!!! And SECOND: return me my earphones!!! Alright now that the 1st 2 issues have been dealt with (note: don't kill me just yet), i would just like to say thanks for being there for me all the time of my entire life...Luv ya! Muacks

Happy now?
Steff

Blogthing 5

2007-03-11T20:15:00.000-07:00

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)

Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.

Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Blogthing 4

2007-03-11T20:10:00.000-07:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

OMG!!! mystrious and interesting?? Hahah...I think i m more of wierd and clumsy...hahaha...but the stress part is quite true i guess

Blogthings 3

2007-03-11T20:03:00.000-07:00

Your Linguistic Profile:

40% General American English

30% Yankee

20% Dixie

5% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Mwahaha..Shows how "mixed" i am...OMG!!I'm a yankee!! wait a min...is tt a good thing?

Blogthings 2

2007-03-11T19:55:00.000-07:00

You Are The Wheel of Fortune

You represent the cycles of life, death, and rebirth.
You embrace change, the the ups and downs of life.
Fate is something you accept, even when you could possibly change things.
Big things tend to happen to you more than other people.

Your fortune:

Something huge is about to happen in your life, and you have little control over it.
You must accept your destiny, but luckily it is good fortune that has come your way.
Big things and big changes are about to come your way.
And while things will be intense for a while, they will be followed by a period of rest.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Wow!!! Haha...maybe i m finally gonna marry my husband!! Hahaha...makes sense?

Blogthings 1

2007-03-11T19:53:00.000-07:00

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor.
You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader.
Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways.
But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical.

With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you

In love: You are picky but passionate

To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What's" Your Dosha?

Hmm...I wonder how true this is?? I think the love part is quite true!! I will only pick my husband!!HaHAHA....Friends i guess okay la... wat do you think?

List of my Resolutions!!!

2007-03-11T01:46:00.000-08:00

Kays...its a BIT late for this...but whatever...

Things i WILL accomplish by DEC this year (i hope) :
1. Marry my Husband (hehehe)
2. Lose weight in time for my wedding! (hahaha...kidding la...just lose about 9 kilo...hahah)
3. Work hard for my A level (and hopefully get into SMU...but i doubt it)
4. Leave my hair long (so that i will look nicer in my wedding photos...hahaha)
5. Finish my 10 Gavel projects
6. Go for a whole lot of Kbox practise once my A levels are over (dun worry shar i will ask u to come...hahaha)

That is about it for now...Hahaha...but i think i cannot fulfil any of them...but at least i can try!! haahah...

Jia You Steff!

Open House

2007-03-11T01:34:00.000-08:00

Haha...actually open house is quite meaningless...I mean it was cool to go and see the school campus and hear all the talks about uni life...but not much as told like SPECIFICALLY how to get a better chance of enrollment...I only went to 1 uni actually ;P Hahaha....I only went to SMU with Michelle....but it was quite cool la...All the Exchange prog were really cool...ESP the US Exchange Programme which would be like for 1 term then pay onli local school fees... SO COOL! Who knows? if i go i might get myself an ABC BF! Hahaha...Kidding!!! But come to think of it...that might be nice! hahaha....YEAH...and tt person might look like LEE HOM!!! ok fine...i better slap myself *slap slap*...I m daydreaming again....But SMU is so diff to get in...I mean its like onli 1 out of 8 aplicants get enrolled!!! Goodness!!! That means i have to work hard....man...CT just over then get stressed until like that!! Haiz...

Oh after i went for the open house from like 12 to 12.45 then i went home ;P Haha...too many pple...so sianz...dun feel like squeezing! hahaha then at about 4 i went jogging!!! YAY!!! I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT!!! then i can marry my husband!!! hahaha...We went quite far in my opinion...Hahaha but i tink to all e OAC pple its like chicken feet man...I ran from my house to Chu ling's place then all e way to njc...then from njc back to my house...wah....now my feet aching...hahaha...maybe i should keep running for the rest of the hols!! Haha....

Hahahaha...i ran out of things to say...kays...see you pple soon!!!

I Love Him!!

2007-03-10T17:20:00.000-08:00

It's official! I love Wang Lee Hom! The guy is just too damn talented, too damn hot and too damn irresistable!!! Gosh...I m going crazy...almost as bad as char liking tt guy from Farenheit...hahah...oh the song i put up is quite an old song...its by him and this woman called Lee ann...i think both of them have really good voices...hahaha...I LOVE YOU LEE HOM!!!

Tianjin Reunion!!

2007-03-09T05:19:00.000-08:00

Haha...today was really fun (probably cos i kept singing my husband's song...haha) we went for lunch at Taka Food court...Then met char and en chun to go sing kbox... Haha....then the 3 of us mass sms my godsis...hahaah....i guess that was what made him change his mind and come for the reunion...hahaha....Oh rite! We took neoprints too!! I'll put tt up in a min...some of the pics are so damn cute... I luv the "dao" one...It so cute!!!Haaha...esp you sharine!!hahaha...Actually its embarrassing but its my 1st time going kbox :P Shhh...I know...i m slow...hahaha...at first i really was quite shoked cuz the room was quite smelly (the cigarette smell) and it was small...but after singing...i guess it was really fun... ESPECIALLY SINGING MY HUSBAND'S SONGS!!! Haha...we sang so many songs it was crazy...still none of us could beat the kbox queen...SHARINE!!! hahah...her voice is really really good! Haha...NEXT TIME I GO KBOX MUZ ASK U TO COME SHAR! Hahah...

Kay...i forgot wat else i wanted to rite...so i'll just post the pics

My Very FIRST Post

2007-03-09T05:16:00.000-08:00

Mwahaha...my blog!!!Ok this is just weird...having my blog on the same dashboard as the class blog...kinda stupid too...but whatever la...i dun really care if anyone just crashes and post silly stuff (not tt anyone would be silly ehuf to do it)... i dun really plan to really put in alot of effort on this blog...just feel tempted to write one ;P